With all things shitty come some great surprises.

The week from hell still sucked and ended on a crappy note. Okinawa, while a great vacation, did not work. So, when Scott returns from DET we will maybe try again, but for now I am done. I can't take it anymore. I am SO happy for my friends that are now expecting. But even with all of the happiness I feel for them, the envy and bitterness is taking over. That is not who I am and I don't like it. My emotional state is just broken all the time. So, a month, maybe two tops. Then I am going back on the pill and we will start talking about maybe even just getting surgery. At least then I will never wonder and I can just get on with my life. The pity party will last this evening. Hopefully, it will end by tomorrow. I have to put on a happy face for the going away party. Blarg. FML.

On a sunny note, it was a really pretty day and my kick ass co-workers surprised me by celebrating my un-birthday, aka half birthday. It was really sweet, complete with tons of balloons and a delicious cake. Lucky to have good people in my life :)

I just need to vent!

I know, I know... I should suck it up. Oh well, I need to vent before I get my straw out! So, this week. The week from hell. Miserable weather. Everyone seems to be in a weird mood. I forgot about the crying - yeah, the drugs cause crying, lots and lots of crying. It has been fan-freaking-tastic! I got caught in a meeting today. Yes, CAUGHT. I was supposed to brief second. They didn't load a slide for me, so I stood up and had to sit right down. This would normally not be a big deal. Today was the exception. I was supposed to brief and LEAVE. I had not eaten lunch, so 15 minutes max right? WRONG! An hour and half later I got to talk and then run over to Taco Bell to grab some food. I was about to eat my notes for the aforementioned brief. Ugh. Have I mentioned the miserable weather? So, let's top this all off with one of my best friends leaving Tuesday. I am going to miss Laura and Quincey SO much. I just want to cry (yes, again) every time I think about the impending departure. How am I going to get through life in Crapsawa without them? Lunches with Quincey, onsens and wine with Laura. Life is just going to suck. I am even going to miss Taz the Spaz, the cutest min pin I have ever seen. Military life is rough, and you get sick of making friends only to be ripped apart so quickly. However, without the Navy I would have never met some of the best people in my life! Laura - you were there for me when I needed you most and I will NEVER forget that. I love you dearly and hope we get to live near each other soon!!!!

This should not take away from the friends I have made in Alaska, Florida, Virginia, or the rest of my dear friends here in Japan. I just know this will be a super tough person to see PCS. Ok, enough venting for now!

Freaking Deployment

Why is it that when a spouse deploys, Murphy's law kicks in? Seriously, when Scott leaves it is inevitable that craziness will ensue.

This morning I started the mower, because to be honest my yard looked like an overgrown jungle spotted with doggie land mines. Grass was high enough that I couldn't even get to these lovely piles that have accumulated over the last two weeks. So, I get the mower into the yard and get one pass done when KABOOM. Mower sputters. Mower dies. Ugh. I do the typical checks, oil and clogging grass... nope. And I had just filled the gas tank, so that couldn't be it. I call Scott, he says to call Grant. I call Grant, that was at 11 a.m. and it is now 4 p.m. and I haven't heard back. Then Scott suggests I ask MSgt McAfee, our neighbor, to take a look at it. He does, but is laughing the whole time because as he points out - he fixes computers all day. Nice guy though, at least he let me borrow his mower so that my jungle was at least tamed for the time being. But a new mower is in our near future and with the vast array of options at the BX I am sure it will be a jewel.

I filled the Darby hole in with the extra bag of potting soil I had on hand. However, it did not fill it completely. I don't know how Darby was able to dig a hole that deep without being caught, but it is a pretty nasty trench. I swear the dogs are trying to turn the yard into a mud pit. Then, I go to rake the excess grass clippings only to discover the rake is broken. WTF? Really? Fuck it. I am going inside to get lunch and sulk. Yep, the sulk is winning for the time being.

Tomorrow I need to get to the grocery store and clean Scott's car - the person who borrowed it while we were gone smoked in it so it is stinky. It is a never ending circle of stupidity.

I miss Scott. I really hope the trip to Okinawa worked. Relaxation is in my near future, counting down the days!

Okinawa 2010

Had the most amazing time spending the last two weeks in Okinawa. Too bad it all had to come to an end. Being a stay-at-the-hotel wife was the best! Even though Scott had to work, we had time to do a lot of really cool things. The sun, oh the sun! It was such a nice change from cold, dreary Misawa. If the dogs were not in Misawa, I don't think I would dragged my sorry butt onto that plane.

So, a few of the fun things I had the chance to experience:

1. Churaumi Aquarium. I LOVE this place, such a beautiful park. Yes, the hippie in me still hates the dolphin and manatee exhibit, but still amazing. The whale sharks and sting rays just blow my mind. This was my second visit to the Aquarium and Ocean Expo Park, but this trip was especially special because I had the chance to see all of it through the eyes of two very sweet young girls. Too fun!

2. Naha Dragon Boat Races. WOW... I love Japanese festivals. They never cease to amaze me and this was no different. Not only did we see the awesome boats race, but it was a beautiful day and the festival portion was a lot of fun. We even saw a pink chicken, yep... it was a prize you could win at a festival booth. I do not, NOT condone the poor chick being dyed and given away to someone who has no clue how to raise it, but it was an image I will not soon forget.

3. Leonard's Rose Garden. My all time favorite restaurant in Okinawa! Love the French toast and the jams! So delicious, I even drink their coffee because it is so yummy! And the best pineapple juice, so fabulous! Luckily, I was able to get in two meals here in my short two week stay!

4. Forest Adventure Park. I was so bummed that I ran out of time for this on my last visit to Okinawa. So, I was SUPER stoked when Scott and I tried it out this time. I had so much fun zip-lining through the jungle while having an unbelievable view of Maeda Point (one of the top scuba and snorkeling locations on the island). This was by far my favorite adventure!!! Two and a half hours of adrenaline rushes and challenging obstacles, LOVED it!

5. The Banyan Tree Golf Course. This was my first time playing at the Banyan Tree. For a military course I was pretty impressed. They have a nice course, fantastic Tee House Restaurant and pretty much perfect weather year round. Can't beat that! Didn't shoot my best game ever, but it was a great time and I even saw a mongoose on the 17th hole! Oh, and I got to see the most awesome planes - the harrier jets - in action! Pretty bad ass day!

6. FOOD. I think if I had not been running every day I would have gained 20lbs! Sam's By The Sea - YUM! Leonard's Rose Garden - YUM! Chili's - YUM! Yogurtland - YUM! Starbuck's - YUM! Hell, even the Rocker Club on Kadena was fantastic... I can't believe that you can get such good food at the Club in Kadena, yet at the Club in Misawa I feel a little sickly each time I try to eat there...

7. Scott. He made the trip perfect. Whether it was spoiling me with presents and dinners and fun adventures, or trying to be sweet and not wake me at the crack of dawn, it was just so perfect to be with him. Deployments suck and I will take every chance I get to spend as much time as possible with the man of my dreams. I feel like the luckiest woman in the world. If you would have told me 14 years ago that Scott would make me this happy I would have keeled over with laughter. I am so glad now that we stuck through all the young, rough years.

Of course this is a blog and I can't cover everything. However, I can tell you that I am going to try to get to Kadena whenever the chance presents itself. LOVE the Japanese Hawaii, I am such a beach bum. I will try to add some pictures when Scott gets home with his camera!